One day I brought home a phrase from the beautiful liturgy at church, "Sanctify us also that we may love and serve you in unity, constancy, and peace . . . " I declared that that grace-filled standard would be ours from now on. That Sunday afternoon was one of the key turning points in experiencing God with me/us.
I did not need Jesus to come to my front door. I needed to let the Spirit of God labor amongst us, changing us from within our relationship.
This message is in other places on my website. I repeat it here, in this shortened form because it is such an important piece of what I have learned in my healing process.
Perhaps this is an example of the darkness of God being the brightest experience of God. No, I think not. It might be one of the ways one moves out of darkness, out of a dark night of the soul.